I haven't written in this thing for the longest time...I guess I'm just really not cut out for all this blogging. But heck, it's a friday, I'm at home. Might as well...right? ü
Normally, I'd write about what I did today, where I went, who I think should be the next American Idol (and why.), how many glasses of water I drank and should have drank. Haha boring? I guess that's the one word I'd use in the Describe-yourself-in-one-word game.
Ok ok, self depreciating AGAIN I presume you're thinking. But it's true. Really.
Nowadays I see my life as something really laid back, to the point that other party people would probably think it boring. I haven't gone to a "party-party" as you may call it, in quite a while. I haven't gone "dancing-dancing" in a really really long time. I haven't really pulled all nighters lately with regard to not knowing where to go, ending up going everywhere. So yeah, I guess it would be a justified statement to say, it's quite different from the typical night-life.
But see, the weird part is, I'm okay about it. I don't really look for those things, and I find myself having even more fun just hanging out with company I love. I have meetings in Church, call it a home night at times, call friends over, or whatever. No, I'm no saint. I can justify to that as well. Some people would say I'm probably wasting the last few years of my teenage life. But heck, I think otherwise

You know how they say an angel passes by when stillness kicks in, in the middle of a group conversation? It's something like that. Yeah, things are really far off from t he party scene. Really quiet if you ask me. And honestly, I'm loving the silence of the placid waters. ü

Though things aren't completely the way I wish them to be, I'm glad that the part that really matters, is okay. ü It's easier when you just let everything out, and that person does the same. It's nicer when you both really care about each others feelings. It's bliss when it hurts, but you know soon enough, things will be okay. So many people are waiting to be honest. They just need someone to pull that trigger and say "Hey, it's not that bad, you know." It's actually great. ü
No, I'm not talking about "some guy". I'm talking about a really good friend of mine, who is much stronger than she thinks she is. Thanks so much.
It's funny how some people think they know the truth because of "talk and talk" but hey, good morning sweetheart, things aren't always true by mouth. I'm glad some people still stand firm on that.
It's funny. It's when you learn where you stand. And where the others do stand too. We're all different I guess.
Oh and Mai told this to me the other night when I was talking about this. "You have to admit, we all have flaws. That's unavoidable. And that usually pisses people off. But those who love you for your imperfections just as much as what you have deep within, those aren't just people. Those are your real friends." Thanks Mai. You really knocked some sense into me there.
Good night ü

The start of 2005 was pretty good for me. I went to Tagaytay with my cousins..It was really fun singing along to Dare You to Move and songs from the New Radicals at the top of our lungs. One of my cousins brought a Mandy Moore cd..the guys hesitated to sing along at first, but joined in anyway after Only Hope. Hahaha ü Oh yeah, it was freezing.
The best part, I must say, was going back home. That's when I realized that life never really is as fun, unless you're brave enough to risk something without being so sure. Therefore the term RISK. Haha, no I'm not saying jump off a cliff to see if you'll hit a rock or not. I'm just saying life is better when you're living it. Going downhill, we put the windows straight down, took off our jackets, leaving our sleeveless and spaghetti strap tops on and just experienced the icy cold air blowing against our faces, arms, and yeah, feet too (Mich and I were dumb enough to wear sandals... that, just didn't work). It was freezing cold. Our faces felt numb, our hands froze. But the thought of what it was we were doing...was hilarious. So we still managed to laugh. And you know what, it was fun. I haven't laughed that hard over something so small in the longest time. I haven't laughed that long for the longest time either.

Life feels better when you live it.

Isn't it sad when you think you're having the better part of things, then in just a second, you realize that things are going the other direction and you never even knew it? Vague, I know. But isn't it anyway?

Life just has its way of hitting you on the head sometimes telling you to wake up. Life isn't really a dance floor. But hey, I'm willing to dance anyway.

The time is right,
I’m gonna pack my bags.
And take that journey down the road.
Cause over the mountain I see the bright sun shining,
And I want to live inside the glow.

I wanna go to place where I am nothing and everything
That exists between here and nowhere.
I wanna got to a place where time has consequence,
The sky opens to my prayers.

Please understand that it's not that I don’t care,
But right know these wall are closing in on me.
I love you more than I love life itself.
But I need to find a place where I can breathe.

I wanna go to place were I can hold the intangible,
And let go of the pain with all my might.
I wanna go to a place where I am suspended in ecstasy,
Somewhere between dark and light.
Where wrong becomes right.

God bless all the families who have been affected by the tragedy in Thailand. May He bless all the orphaned children..We pray for all of them. God bless the souls of those who have gone ahead.

"I want to go to the beautiful."

Hey everyone, check out the new pictures we put up. www.picturetrail.com/incredo ü The pictures from the play are already out.
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Walk on the ocean, Kace. Love ya. ü